Me Monday

 


This morning I woke to find (yet again) my hair cursed by its "too long-ness".  Bed-head.  Great.  I wanted to bike to work but do I want to do that with a wet head?  

Zupe asked why I was looking in the mirror and sighing.  I told him I thought my hair looked silly.  "What do you think, Zupe?  Is my hair silly?  Nope.  In Zupe, he told me I look fine because he sees me "in his heart".  

I'm now wondering if I can start each exam appointment this morning with a suggestion that we each look at the other with our hearts.  

This has the potential to become the fourth pillar of my philosophy.  

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