Gifted and Talented by Olivie Blake

 They loved each other like you loved a really good electric toothbrush.  The way you loved the perfect cashmere sweater.  Because it kept you warm when you were cold.

 

"I think I might be marrying someone who isn't you," she said, accepting it.

"Mm.  How does it feel?" Jamie asked, sipping his coffee.

Meridith considered it.  "Safe," she said.  "But also, kind of like I want to swallow hot poison and die."


..and felt sad, but not, I suppose, empty.  Not ... unfulfilled, exactly, but more...unfinished.  Like the story didn't have an ending yet.  A silly thing to think at a funeral.  Obviously all stories have endings whether you're ready for them or not.

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